Part-7

I woke up with the harsh door knock of my room. Someone is constantly knocking the door as if they only have the aim of wake me up.

I opened the door.

It was pooja.

Hey u slacker. Still sleeping?? Get ready in 10 mints we will wait in hall.

For college??  I asked her with the drowsy voice

No stupid. We are going to RMF

Why so sudden??

Stop probing. Get ready that’s it. She ordered.

I got ready and went to hall. I saw Vikranth n pooja, priya were sitting on couch with mom.

I kept mum .mom brought breakfast for me a. I refused. Mom complained to our gang .Look at your friend… skipped supper yesterday. And now breakfast.

Pooja gave me an angry look and forced me to eat. Somehow I managed to eat. We left the home. Vikranth brought his car. Vikranth and pooja sat in front .i priya were settled in back couch. I wished priya “Hi” for which she replied same and we started our journey

I broke the silence and asked pooja reason for sudden ride for which she replied

 “I don’t know. in night priya called me and said we are going I said ok  let’s go..

Priya looked at me with a smile. I avoided her eye contact..

A message flashed on my mobile screen.it was from priya.

Why so serious????.

I replied” nothing like that. Why u planned this sudden trip???”.

“I want to spend some time with you” she replied.

I want to spend my lifetime with you I thought in my mind. But instead of giving reply I was immersed in the thoughts of her

 We reached RMF around 10.a.m…

It was a great fun with all our gang. After exploring some of beautiful sceneries of RMF…we spent their up to evening .but what made my trip more beautiful was her conduct towards me .it was normal as what we used to be. And throughout our trip in RMF she held my hand. Her touch sent a chill to my spine it was an amazing experience walking in the greeneries of RMF holding the most beautiful girl of my life. I wish I could hold her hand for the rest of my life at that moment I felt like I won’t let her go.

There comes the evening we were tired with the exploration and settled on a bench in a beautiful park of RMF.

Pooja and vikranth are also having good time with each other presence. They excused us and went for shopping.

She said “I want to say something to you”.

Sure dear tell me…..

She gave a letter to me.That letter is about the decision she took. Finally she said what is in her heart. I didn’t expect such kind of reply from her. All my fears were true. She doesn’t feel the same as I feel. She decided to be my friend forever .Though reason for her decision is not succinct enough to convince me. She promised me that “this won’t affect our friendship. Nothing will change. You are my friend and will be friend forever. I will be there with you whenever you needed me.”

The only thing that I liked about that letter is she promised me that “she will be with me”

I smiled (Though my world started to crumble inside) and kept mum as if I was least effected by her decision. I controlled my feelings.. I wanted to show her that I won’t be affected with her decision. I managed to cover all my emotions so that she doesn’t know that how much I love her. If she knows that i am affected with this. She feels bad for that .so keeping silence was the best option for me.

“Say something”. She said.

It’s okay dear. I will wait for you. I said.

It’s not about time yash.i couldn’t guarantee you that we will be in a relationship in future. I don’t think we are meant to be. You deserve a better girl than me, who understands you well. Who cares for you, who love you…..

I could not utter more. Except sorry

Don’t say sorry dear in fact I’m sorry for letting you down. Forgive me…

I was not able to say anything at that moment. Somehow I managed to cover up all my emotions and I messaged to vikranth to come so that I can escape from emotional outburst …finally vikranth and pooja saved me from that plight …..That was the most excruciating moment of my life…

There is a thin line between friendship and love. one must know their limits.We should not mistook their care. If we do so that would eventually leads to heartbreaks. Sometimes it creates a rift between their friendships. Loving our friend is normal instinct but it would be unbearable for us to know that they don’t feel the same.

That was a lesson learning phase of my life. After some days her house shifted to Bangalore coz her dad transferred to Bangalore.

 she left us.

 She left me ……

I’m here alone.desolated,deserted