PART- 4

i reached home around 11 P.M .A message flashed on my mobile screen. it was from priya

It feels very nice for me on knowing that my birthday is special for someone. Thanks for this day yashwanth.This is my best birthday ever. Thanks for the gift ...i loved it i m on my way to read it I know this is going to be my best book i ever read in my life. You are my best friend i don’t want to miss you for any reason. I hope we will be best friends forever...

I am happy with the entire message except "best friends forever “I just dont want to be a mere friend .i wanted to say that i wished to be her partner for life but I didn’t. That’s how my love birthday ended. though it ended with despondency on my face i was happy with the day.....

But today I did a stupid thing by ignoring her feelings, by ignoring a special day of my life
it feels very dejected when a friend close to us meet us on birthday and forget to wish us...it gives them a feel like ”we lost importance in their life”

I reached my reading table to write a mail to her. I saw new book on that table. it was “Gone with the wind “book .The book I gave on her last birthday. She returned it to me .i didn’t observed that she brought this book today. I felt some wetness on that book I wondered where it came from...

Damn it……she cried.

i made her cry. I made my cute princess cry ...how stupid I’m. She is the one who wanted me to see happy she is the one who trust me well. She never did a thing that hurt me. Why i am punishing her with my stupid behaviour .why she have to cry on her birthday for a stupid like me. She deserves happiness not tears.

I dialled her number again but the auto voice repeated the switch off statement. I kept on dialling and this way an hour passed I was unable to talk to her. I felt uneasy for what I had done. I kept blaming myself. I could not think off anything. I should apologize. But those repeated statements making me impatient

I wrote a mail to her

Hey dear,

“Do you remember I promised you on your last birthday .that I won’t let you to miss me.  I’m sooooo sorry dear. I broke that promise today .I am bad. I missed you on your birthday. But the sad part is I failed to wish you though you are in front of me…I feel so bad right now. I know you cried I failed to sense that. Don’t cry for me dear don’t let those tears for stupid like me. i wont worth those precious tears .you don’t have to be hurt like that. it’s me who needs to cry for hurting the ingenuous person like u. you deserve a better friend than me. I know sorry not enough but I wanted you to know how I truly feel……

                                                                        
                                                       Forgive me.”

I was not happy with that. I wanted to talk to her. I was feeling guilty that I am the reason for someone’s tears.

It’s hard to decide how to Care for a person When you know that one step forward will make you fall in Love And one Step Backward will ruin your Friendship..

I was engrossed in her thoughts I was unable to sleep ..

it was 1 A.M then my cell rang
……..

it showed “priya calling”